Addiction versus Reliance is a bug bear of mine. You wouldn't accuse a patient with Heart Arrythmia of being "addicted" to Flecainide!!
And by default addiction is only a problem when supply is cut off, or effect starts to wain. There is no reason to assume a decreasing effect over the passage of time alone, and supply would only be an issue between yourself and your Physician. In any event, better a few good years than none at all is my point of view.....
It always seems to come down to the individual and their specific reaction to any given drug, only you will know what your body is telling you.
I have a daily intake of 6mg of Clonazepam, and I'm told it is 20 times stronger than Diazepam. So would I need 120mg of Diazepam for the same effect? If the answer is yes, then I'd damn well take them and do what my body told me was right.
My routine took some time to "build up to". Once past the 'hangover' phase, I gradually shifted half my dose spread through the daytime, and the other 3mg at bedtime all in one go.
It's been a revelation for me in terms of sleep, now being able to get 4 or 5 hours of stage 4 sleep has transformed my world, and heres hoping it continues. I also take the daily max of Tramadol and Dihydrocodeine and Zopiclone all related to chronic pain/insomnia.
Life without these drugs for me is bed bound 24/7 with pain levels higher than an end stage cancer sufferer (I'm told).
Addicted? Poppycock!!
Reliant? You're damn right! And wild horses would not get me off my current regime after having tried avery 30 different drugs and combos, this is the best quality of life I can get from ANY current medical options (including IV Lidocaine!).
I always try new prescription drugs under strict professional medical guidance and my Doctor knows far too well that on the benefit versus risk scale, this is by far my best option.
Go With your gut and with the knowledge of your Doc.
Good luck
Cro xx