My head is fucked, what do i do now?

Question

i am 16 years, and i feel my life is a mess. i have considered suicide several times but i feel that is a easy way out. I get used alot.. and dont even know what is real anymore, nobody understands what goes on in my head. my mood swings are so dramatic i cant cope. i worry im going psychiatric i punch walls and hurt myself purposly to get away from the thoughts. But nobody sees this, not even my closest friend or family. They all think i am fine. I fail at everything so really what even is the point? i feel i am so ugly i cant even look in the mirror. Ive been in love before and i never want to fall for a guy again, all my friends are fake and i have no one to trust. No matter what i never feel happy. i actually feel like im emotionally dying, like what even im 16 shouldnt this be the best years of my life? and i hate sympathy it makes me feel about 5. even my dad whistling or shaking his leg will irritate me, So yeah im messed up. Any advice on my fucked up life would be appreciated.

Answer 1

stay calm, talk to someone, call breathing space



Breathing Space:http://www.breathingspacescotland.co.uk/bspace/CCC_FirstPage.jsp

Answer 2

Maybe you have bipolar disorder? Not that i know too much about it but even the most "normal" looking people can get it like Stephan Fry is an example. I think the best thing to do is put an appointment on at the doctor and describe how you are feeling, maybe talking to a councillor would help and that way your family and friends can help you recover?



Hope you feel better soon but my judgement may not be best, the best thing to do is talk to your parents or a teacher, friend, someone you can trust and take what they think into account. No-one can tell you what to do here, its all up to you even though it seems hard.

Answer 3

It is a trying time of life, adulthood is commencing - when you consider just the average length of a human lifespan though, you have to believe there's a lot more yet to come and that it cannot all be bad or people would just go right off the idea of being anything/anyone..., what you're combating these thoughts & feeling with is 'hope' & you can rest assured it is springing eternally from it's source - you just have to take it, direct it and progress from it towards those goals you know will elevate you from these circumstances presently seeming to scupper you best intentions and buoyant mood.

Answer 4

Hi Lucy (:



Keep ur head up high! Things will get better soon hun.. I promise.

Take one day at a time... Take a deep breath and RELAX. Life is beautiful... U just need to find the beauty in it.



That beauty is JESUS and he loves u more than u know! Call on him and pray with a humbling heart & he will heal ur pain, worries, and burdens!



"Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest." - Jesus



He LOVES U! Everyone is on earth for a purpose! I used to have thoughts too, but I called on Jesus and he helped me... He can help u too! Life is worth living when he is in it! I promise u (:



I will pray for you hun! Love u <3...

SMILE and have a beautiful day!!! :*)

xxx

Pink Ice

Answer 5

You have serious teenage hormonal issues. It's easy to say, but they will pass.